My Mind was
extraordinarily calm when I was told
A Lucid Numbness I
suppose
Listening to the words
but avoiding the 'hearing'
That one word echoed
hollowly in my ear...Cancer
How do you react?....I
didn't...I remained calm
and so it was for
days....
Until at last it
dawned...and the flood gates opened..
Cancer.....
The rest was a blur (or
so it seemed to me)
They cut from
inside....small blades...small holes..
When I awoke...I
searched for it....no, it wasn't there..
A bag was not
required....and I gave thanks...
What now I
wondered....is it still there?....will there be a future?
The next words I heard
with my eyes....a letter....
It is gone...it is no
longer there....we were successful....
I cried....
No further treatment
required...
I cried...
This is all good
news...
I cried and I
laughed....
A second chance...a
re-birth within a Life...
How can I have such
extraordinary luck?
Yet, somehow I felt
guilt...how many others will not survive?
Why me?.....
I now look with
different eyes...feel with a different Heart...
I move forward with
gratitude....the Wheel Turns...the Path awaits.
