The Unexpected

My Mind was extraordinarily calm when I was told

A Lucid Numbness I suppose

Listening to the words but avoiding the 'hearing'

That one word echoed hollowly in my ear...Cancer

How do you react?....I didn't...I remained calm

and so it was for days....

Until at last it dawned...and the flood gates opened..

Cancer.....

The rest was a blur (or so it seemed to me)

They cut from inside....small blades...small holes..

When I awoke...I searched for it....no, it wasn't there..

A bag was not required....and I gave thanks...

What now I wondered....is it still there?....will there be a future?

The next words I heard with my eyes....a letter....

It is gone...it is no longer there....we were successful....

I cried....

No further treatment required...

I cried...

This is all good news...

I cried and I laughed....

A second chance...a re-birth within a Life...

How can I have such extraordinary luck?

Yet, somehow I felt guilt...how many others will not survive?

Why me?.....

I now look with different eyes...feel with a different Heart...

I move forward with gratitude....the Wheel Turns...the Path awaits.

Terminus

This is the Last One

the One that ends them all

Whatever was there is gone

and this is but the remaining shadow

that fades gently into the Timeless Mist

ne'er to return

Perhaps some day, before The End, another

will come

and maybe a new door will open

to reveal another Muse

But until that Time, All will remain quiet

and Still

Sleeping until the Iron Bell calls forth.

Farewell

To Be


The Spirit of the Air spoke to me
No words, not speech, nor hearing
but, instead, the Language of Touch,
My Skin understood perfectly
though I had no Knowing,
and the Revelation of it touched my Soul,
What the Spirit said to me
was all at once a Breeze, a Coolness, a Caress
So Light, yet I could feel the ebb and flow of the syllables,
A Vocabulary of Vortices, stirring the Air
and with each Touch a new Understanding
of what it is to 'Be'
Just 'To Be'
At One, In One, with Me, Myself, My Heart,
The Spirit of the Air Touch-whispered
in my Soul's ear the Wind of Silence
and in this Silence
Deep Joy and Happiness
and Peace.

Tears for the Lost

Today I cry for humanity
because humanity has lost its Soul

A photo....a woman...a rifle....
a dead Giraffe....
She is so proud...her poise...her smile
a conqueror of Wild Things
a huntress....she stalked...and was patient
as the Giraffe peacefully munched some leaves
stationary...peaceful...mild....Alive
she aimed...pressure on the trigger....
final pull and it lay dead
What a fight it put up....as it stood still....eating
How brave the woman with the rifle....
But how Sad the state of her Mind
How cold the heart that beats inside
How little she thinks of Life
How can we call ourselves civilised
when we kill for sport...for the thrill,
those defenceless animals
that cause no harm....
There is no 'Humanity' in humanity
and today I cry for them.


Link to the Facebook page showing the photo...
https://www.facebook.com/rickygervais/photos/a.211358748988486.1073741829.209390455851982/325842970873396/?type=3&theater

Serenity

In the Moment I feel All,
Clarity of Perception fills my Mind
and I join seamlessly with the Universe
Mind, Body, Spirit, Heart
Unified in a Great Joy
Sadness Past, no longer Present
Demons Old, banished Forever
Separateness Felt, no longer divides
Painful Memories, Laid to Rest
Tears that Fell, now Evaporated at last

In the Moment, for there is only the Moment,

All becomes One,
The divine of the Universe both Seen and Unseen
a welcome Companion on my Path,
I walk with Serenity and Beauty
and Great Happiness in my Heart
I am at Peace.

Lament...


When the stones cry

and the Heart of the World

is rendered apart
When Trees weep as their roots die
and the Wind howls in pain
Where will we be?
What shall we say?
When the Oceans boil in Darkness
and Mountains echo the Agony
of Earth's Soul
What will we do?
Where can we go?
When the Clouds carry Death
and the Air scorches the Land
When there is nothing left to eat
Will we still be blind
Will we have learned
or will it be too late?

Now


"I Stood and looked at the Moon
Her Wondrous Light
Ravaged by the Stormy Clouds
As they Tumbled and Rolled
Across the Windy Night Sky
Glimpses of Starlight here and there
in All too brief a view
An Owl called in the Distance
the Wind carrying the sound to my Ear
A scurrying in a nearby hedge
told me the Night Shift had begun
I Bathed in Moonlight
And gave thanks for All that is
for All that Is exists only in that Moment
That single infinitismally small measure
of Time
I Breathe it in, I acknowledge it
and effortlessly Move to the next Moment
I Exhale and Let the previous Moment Go"

Moment of Despair


"Lost in a vast Ocean of turbulent sea
I cling to my raft, full of fear for the future
The skies are my eyes and they cry
my Heart is the Ocean and it heaves
The waves crash down
and I am lost seeking safe dry land
that I cannot see"

Caress


"That gentle caress of mind on mind
thought against thought
electric, soft and powerful
the Two Hearts Beat
and in between, the Silence of Understanding
echoes the words they long to hear
each to each
their hands entwine and reach
deep into their Souls
and mingle there with the Eternal"

Changes


"I change Timelessly in an unchanging Timeless Way,
A Progression less noticed on the outside, but,
Inside there is a Vast Sea of change spanning many Lifetimes,
Infinitismally small shifts of an evolving Spirit,
A Distillation of Soul,
a Condensation of Mind,
The Alchemy of the Source adds and subtracts to the Formula
And the Experiment continues to Equilibrium"

Shadow World


"The World turns, in shadow half,
the Bright side offers promise
But beneath the Blue and Heat
the Evil they will meet,
and spill into the shadow-land
to show their true hand and
what it proffers,
Starlight, giving no Light to the Way
beckons the weak to stay
and indulge their whims
with payment of their Souls.
Repayments cannot be made
Forfeit the only way..
Lost
Forever!"

Balance


"The nature of Life, the Universe and everything, is one of polarity.
There is always Yin and Yang, Up and Down, Positive and Negative,
Happy and Sad, Calm and Fear and so on.
We cannot live at these extremes,
even though we sometimes visit them from time to time,
therefore, try to find a balance between those extremes in your life,
even though this may be difficult to achieve.
Seek the help of others, find balanced people and fill your life with them,
Meditate often and see tranquillity in simple things.
Soft will defeat hard, so yield and overcome.
Above all, be humble, honest and harm no one.
Life can be short, yet do not rush through it and see only the superficial,
Mark time with the beat of the heart and the drawing of breath.
Dig deep beneath the surface of experience and draw nourishment from
the riches within"

Transmutation


"The Transmutation of Spirit comes
through the Alchemy of Unconditional Love
acting on the Heart of Great Compassion,
In all things be True to the Path of Light
and remain Open to receive that which is being offered,
From Base to Crown be connected as one Body,
Fire at the bottom, Light at the top,
A Fusion of both in between.
When you touch another's Heart
do so with the lightness of a feather
as it falls to the ground
And hold it as you would a new born child,
It is then Spirit begins to change
for what Spirit can remain unchanged
in the presence of Pure Love"

Walking our Path


"The Path ahead must be viewed clearly
and with an open accepting mind,
No Path continues forever even though we might wish it to,
Each time we reach a hill on our journey,
until we can see over it
our Path ends at the horizon,
As we reach the top we must brace ourselves
and give thanks if the Path continues,
Even when it eventually stops,
we must give thanks,
for what was,
and what yet might be"

Wilderness


"There is a Wilderness inside us all
and that Wilderness knows the Secrets of our Silence
During our lifetimes we visit there
seeking answers to half formed questions,
Listening with deaf ears to the Universal Silence,
Sometimes lost and wandering
Sometimes sitting at an Oasis of Truth
quenching our thirsts from a Lake of Knowledge,
We may spend days, minutes, hours journeying
through valleys of self doubt or sadness
not knowing if an answer will come,
Then, in an instant, we emerge, stronger, more assured,
and only the Wilderness knows the Truth it spoke
in Silence, in Thought, in Feeling, in Secret.
And now, we also know the Truth
that can only be acted upon, rather than spoke"

Messenger


"And the Raven spoke to me,
and told of many Things,
Of lives Past and yet to be,
of Places far and near,
In his Dark eyes were reflected all there is to see,
And yet, many views were hidden as if in mystery,
I listened and did hear,
I trembled as in Fear,
Yet Fear was not in me,
only wonder at the sight,
His eyes sparkled as diamonds in the night sky
Then, whispering gently, said goodbye…
And was gone, as he had come
In the blink of an eye"

Still Water


"There are moments upon which we can stand and
Gaze out upon the ocean of our Dreams…
Sometimes there is turbulence….other times, great Storms
that pound the shores of our Minds…
Yet, there are times of Sublime Calmness also,
that allow Spirit to glide effortlessly over the waters of our Inner Self
And see reflected upon the surface the Light of understanding…..
Therefore, to weather the Storms of Indecision and Doubt,
we must become an Ocean of Great Stillness beneath,
even if we tremble on the surface…."

Still Point


"Allow your Mind to walk in the Silences between Breaths
Listen to the Soundless footfall of your Being
When you can hear the un-hearable and
Touch that which cannot be felt
Then you will have arrived at the Still-Point of your Soul
You will recognize Inner Self
You will know your True Form
Only then will you be truly Awake!"

Raw


"The Time will come, you know,
When we must bare the Spirit Raw
And expose every vein of doubt
That stops us from moving forward
To that State of Knowledge
Some call Enlightenment,
And we must blood-let from these veins
To scour the Inner Surfaces of the scales
Of hardened Self importance and Ego,
Only then, the stickiness of Love-less Minds
Will be replaced
By the smoothness of Acceptance and Non-Attachment,
And the wounded Heart will close
Healed
Ready to Love and sing with Passion"

Emptiness


"Always be at peace with your own Emptiness,
It is this Void within that allows vast stores of Unconditional Love,
Humility, Joy, Sadness, Healing and Trust to be gathered,
The more we fill with these qualities,
the greater our Emptiness expands to accommodate them.
Our Spirits are Infinite, and in being so,
allows for an Infinite Emptiness to be filled
with the Light of the Unlimited Qualities
that take us beyond the Human Realm and
into that of which we truly are...Spirit"